“Make the art and act of recognition of miracles a habit.”
This is an awesome truth and I would love to live by it. I have known to be an expert theorist and really believe that it is good to make the recognition of miracles a habit but application is the point. When theory comes alive and it is used that is when lives are impacted.
I have also been known to be a perfectionist, not that I am perfect in all things but I get discouraged, often want to quit and sometimes not even want to start if I don’t think I can do it “perfect”, not that I have ever done things “perfect”. This is my past but my present and future are different.
I have decided that I will continue playing. Yes, I will stumble but that’s ok. I will repose and be silent and focus on the ideal. I will find the treasure in me and others because we are all nature’s greatest miracle.
This week was encouraging. Up to this point in my MKE journey, I felt left out. I read and heard about other people’s breakthroughs but I felt as though my journey was on a plateau. Many times during the webinars, I would hear, “are you making the connections” and I would answer in my head, “not really”. Well, all of a sudden, I was making connections, whether I was at a business meeting, things reading social media, or whatever I was doing, things in my brain were connecting like a web. I didn’t want to get too excited (I think this is part of being a white), “just in case” but, as I was driving today a thought came to my mind. I had been toiling the soil, planting seeds, pulling out the weeds, watering and putting nutrients into the soil for months. I was discouraged because I didn’t see anything coming out of the ground even though I felt I was working hard. Day after day there was nothing to show for my efforts. But, with the help of the webinars and the mastermind alliance I persisted. Today, I see that I am a little more confident, I like myself a little more, I started dreaming again, I am kinder to myself and I am more hopeful. The little buds and leaves are still delicate and so I continue to protect, nurture and celebrate with enthusiasm the small steps I have made thus far. I am grateful!
As I was reading scroll V of the Greatest Salesman, I was reminded that living in the past and the future does not do anyone any good. As I sit and think about the things I tend to think about I realized that the majority of my thinking is about the failures, regrets, and disappointments of the past and the fears of what might be. They are not helpful.
“Yesterday is buried forever and I will think of it no more.”
“Tomorrow lies buried with yesterday and I will think of it no more.”
Today, I do not think about yesterday or tomorrow because I choose to think of today as another opportunity for me to become the woman I know I can be.
I can’t believe it’s already week 18. I feel like I just started MKE. Grateful and also sad.
This week I was grateful for the 5 things (gratitude, kindness, the sit, exercise and reliving the good moments) we NEED to do every day. It’s become the 5 things I WANT to do every day. I find that as I give thanks, I am becoming more thankful. I actually could feel the lightness, peace, and freedom each time I chose to give thanks. I can imagine my brain rewiring and firing as I do this. I am going to continue to grow in this area, What would the person I intend to become do next? One of the things is to continue to give thanks.
Do I give myself permission to be happy? This is a good question.
About a year ago, I started seeing a counselor about twice a month for a mental and emotional check-up. This past week she said something to me that made me think. She said that I don’t have much self-compassion. I have compassion for a lot of people but not for myself. It’s true that for most of my life I have been busy taking care of others and I have put pressure on myself to do it well and it has given me much identity and purpose. I did not think too much about what makes me happy, never mind self-care or self-compassion. I have been feeling a bit burnt out lately and wondered why. I think I know part of the reason why I feel so tired. I was basing my identity on taking care of others and worse yet what people thought of me. Yikes! This part of my identity was built on sand and not on the rock. I have decided that I am giving myself permission to be happy. I am basing my identity on what God thinks about me. He says that I have great value because I am His child and it is not based on what I do for others or for Him. I decided that I am going to give myself much compassion as I give to others. I give myself permission to be happy.
“Vain attempts to imitate others no longer will I make. Instead, I will place my uniqueness on display in the market place. I will proclaim it, yea, I will sell it. I will begin now to accent my differences: hide my similarities.” (Og Mandino)
I was reminded this week while reading scroll IV that many times, I do not value who I am and the unique person God made me to be. I often value who others are and their uniqueness and wallow in self-pity that I am not like them, as if I was lacking because they are more. I know that there are times when we need to learn from others and celebrate them but I see that more often than not I have tried more to imitate others rather than trusting and accepting the unique and valuable person that I am. I have been accentuating similarities rather than embracing the differences. Why? Probably because I wanted peace and acceptance. But, what does other’s acceptance of me really mean if I do not accept me? There is no peace and acceptance in that.
“Vain attempts to imitate others no longer will I make.” I choose to believe that I am unique and valuable. I love and accept me. Even as I write this sentence, I feel more freedom, peace, and joy. I choose to look for things that make me different from others and celebrate them. I was made in love and with a unique purpose that no one can fulfill except me. How wonderful it is to know that I am one of a kind and I can serve this world for good in my own unique and special way.
I was on vacation this week with my family in Cuba. It has been many years since I have gone to an all-inclusive vacation where all I did was sleep, eat, go to the beach, and relax. I have to admit that the first 4 days were difficult in that my mind was racing and thinking about many things. I struggled because my purpose was to relax but I could not get my mind to slow down. I wanted to put the Law of Relaxation into practice but the more it took me awhile. By 5th day, my mind started to relax and I got to think about lesson 15.
In the last few years, I had been thinking about my life and how disappointed I was with myself because I was not where I wanted to be. Things I dreamed about doing, the kind of relationships I wanted to have and the person I wanted to become had not materialized. I thought I would have arrived by the time I was 50 but I did not. I know that this is my perfectionism talking and I will choose to believe that life is a journey and a process. It says in Lesson 16, “…so as to be ready for the new cycle of sevens, beginning with the fiftieth year.” the past several years had been a period reconstruction, adjustment, and recuperation and so I accept that. It’s part of life and now I am ready for a new cycle of sevens. I have been given the tools through MKE to renew my mind, to fix my thoughts on who I want to become and be like. I create thoughts that I want and mix it thoroughly with vitality, clarity, boldness, courage, strength, determination and good feelings. I am still learning and trying to understand all that is being taught in the MKE and I am trying, it’s not perfect but I am trying and persisting. I am so grateful that I have this opportunity to continue to learn and grow into the person God created me to be.
I am loving this week’s scroll. Scroll IV says, “I am nature’s greatest miracle”, “I am a unique creature” and “I am not on this earth by chance. I am here for a purpose and that purpose is to grow into a mountain, not to shrink to a grain of sand.”
When I was in my thirties I had hoped that by the time I turned 50, I would have learned to love myself well, be very comfortable in my own skin and be fully living in the purpose that God created me for. I turned 50 this year and to be honest I have not completed that race. I could choose to be discouraged and disappointed but I choose not to because I have accepted that my life is a journey. I do love myself more, I am more comfortable in my skin and I am living more in the purposes that God created me for than I did in my thirties. I believe that doing the Master Key will accelerate this journey.
I am a unique miracle and I am here with a purpose to bring heaven to earth. Scroll number IV is cementing these truths into my subby and so every day for this month, I will enthusiastically read this scroll every day.
I am continuing throughout the holidays to think about persistence and forgiveness and I believe that as I persist, I am whole, perfect, strong, powerful, loving, harmonious and happy.
“I will be likened to the rain drop which washes away the mountain.” Og Mandino
“… the law of growth necessarily governs every manifestation in the objective so that a denial of unsatisfactory conditions will not bring about instant change……..withdrawal of your thought from the contemplation of unsatisfactory conditions will gradually, but surely, terminate these conditions.” Master Key Part 14
The Gal at the mirror – to love oneself
The Law of Forgiveness – to forgive everyone and anyone, including oneself to clear the channel to the divine.
As I forgive myself from all the regrets, failures and the should of and the would of stuff, I am learning to love the gal in the mirror. I know that’s the best thing to do, to forgive myself and I will persist in doing so because I was created to be free. It may be like a raindrop on a mountain and it may be like childish swipes on a huge oak tree and it may not be an instant process and be a gradual process but I will persist and I will succeed and be free.
I will learn to love myself for the greater good. Can you imagine a community of people who genuinely love their authentic and unique self, how wonderfully and lavishly we would love each other? That would truly be heaven on earth.
This week resentment and bitterness tried to creep in again. Holidays sometimes seem to do that. It’s supposed to be a time of celebration, enjoying family and friends and good times but sometimes it is not. I was tempted to slide down the path of unforgiveness but I was reminded of the bear that hugged the hot pot. The image of the bear is stuck in my mind and I am grateful. As soon as the image comes to my mind, I forgive because I want a really good connection to the Divine and I don’t want to be burned. Anger and resentment whether it is justified or not can not exist if I want a good relationship with the One who loves me. (Law of Forgiveness) Even though I have forgiven, resentment and bitterness try to come back but then I ask God, what He thinks about the ones who have hurt me and I think on those thoughts. (The Law of Substitution) and this happens again and again and I practice having God’s thoughts about them. (Law of Practice). I am not yet perfect but I am getting better at this.